This is how I feel right now ;) My wife been working 3 nights in a row, horrible ain't it? I get lonely, among other things. My oldest daughter whining all the time and my youngest peeing on everything, I need a stress relaxer. And my jaw still hurts. Someone yank this tooth out soon, I don't care who ;( 

Ouch!

I just started suffering from a broken wisdom tooth under my gum again, along with a migraine headache from yesterday, and heartburn and poison ivy on my neck, made for one hell of a night's sleep. Toward morning I was still in much pain and I remember Carrie placing her hand on my face and most of the severe pain went away and I do not feel as cranky.

I had a dream this morning I was outside the old LDS church I went as a child, and I was packing things into my car, mostly spiritual related books. I was standing on top of a stack of books talking down at people asking them to leave behind their mundane religous ways and come with me. I saw Carrie and her brother Raymond as they were in their teens and called to them. Carrie was the only one who came with me, and Raymie I just gave him the finger out of jest and he took off laughing.

Another part of the dream my father had moved back to PA, which sort of looked like the Selinsgrove area, but could have been anywhere. He was babysitting Jacob and I had come to pick him up. I was sitting in his house when his phone rang and an old lady who lived next door to him was upset and said Jacob was with a friend throwing rocks and sand all over her porch, so I had to go out and clean it up with a broom, and then the old woman yelled again saying they knocked over her bird bath in the backyard. So I picked that up and then came outside to see a woman in her 30s, long brown hair, and glasses, knocking on my dad's door, and she appeared to be his girlfriend since he was calling her cute names and being really affectionate. I said, "ok Jacob this is gross we're gonna go now."

End of Dream

The meditative thought below is very true.

Elder's Meditation of the Day - August 24
"The mind's eye changes the way we judge things."
--Fools Crow, LAKOTA
"What you see is what you get." Our head has inside it a movie projector that projects out from our foreheads and shines on a screen a picture of our true thoughts. This is our reality. We can only see what we project (our beliefs). If we believe someone is a jerk, every time we see them we reflect our beliefs about what we think about that person and that is all we can see. Even if someone tells us this person is a kind, loving, caring, intelligent individual, we wouldn't be able to see it. If we change our belief about them, that person will change and so will our judgment about that person.

My Creator, let me realize the power of choice. Let me see the advantages of changing my beliefs. Today, if I am judging my brother, let me change my beliefs to acceptance. If my thoughts are of anger, let me change them to love. Let my eyes only see you in everything and every person.

Getting ready :)

I have all things in place now to start school on September 28th for Massage Therapy. Carrie took out a loan on her retirement to help with the remaining costs, which she now says I'm her bitch forever ;) That's fine with me.

I've been doing some meditation sessions with her, not getting a lot through so perhaps I need to try some new techniques, but somethings I got through last night seemed interesting, so I will write them down. Perhaps it was a future event, or something spiritually symbolic going on behind the scenes. There seemed to be a lot of Catholic images, though I am not Catholic or have any interest in the religion.

First I began seeing men in the room in front of me dressed in gowns, white and grey, more like priest robes, and they were standing in line walking slowly in front of me.

Then a scene appeared of inside a cathedral from a side view, as men were walking up the aisle. The room was dark, shades of dark blue, very shadowy, with people standing in the shadows and their faces covered in darkness. The man in the front appeared to be a leader, priest or even a Pope of some sort except he seemed very young to me, 30s-40s perhaps. This felt like a secret dark behind the scenes ceremony.

Then to the left of that scene another opened up which was almost a mirror of what I was seeing, completely flipped and reversed, except the scene was very bright, golds and yellows and all the people were smiling, dressed in bright colors and white. An older man which reminded me of Pope John Paul was at the front of the line, but he was kneeling down in prayer, holding a golden staff in his hand with a jeweled cross at the top of it. He was dressed in white. Behind him was an archway, above the archway was was the word "HERO" in gold.

I was prompted that there is a division that is occuring or will occur that will in someway split the major religions in half, more particularly Catholics, and would be a sign of the times, that one group of people would be holding on to old dark traditions while another would be enlightened.

Another scene then opened up with what looked like the current Pope being led down a carpeted rostrum stairs outside of a cathedral in broad daylight. Armed guards and priests in red robes were walking along side him, but the Pope was in handcuffs with his hands bound behind his back, as he looked at the crowd. I could not tell what he was being arrested for.

That was pretty much the end of that scene, I feel asleep, dreamed I was standing in line as these people were cutting up unleavened loaves of bread and handing the pieces out- perhaps a sacrament of some sort. The women cutting the bread were dressed in white aprons.

Aside from that...

Our only kitten's eyes have opened, we have yet to name the kitten yet. Looks like it is a boy. There is not much else new going on. Carrie and I are doing better =) Her work schedule changes soon to extended weekend so she will be home a lot more. I need to start excercising soon as well to stay in shape for school and other activities.

Todd