What am I thankful for?

Taking a break from being in a slump and reflecting on what I am thankful for.

I am thankful that I have been blessed with a beautiful wife, and 3 beautiful children, and I sincerely hope that I can look forward to be blessed with having them many years to come. I am thankful for the roof over my head, the commodities of life that we all take for granted, for all the hard work my wife has put into this selflessly, and hope someday soon she can realize too how much she has been blessed with, and how unfortunate many other people are out there. She deserves a break though, and I am also thankful that I have been awakened. It is time to forget the past and the hurt and just be thankful of what the Lord has given. For he answers prayers and hears your cries, and will never allow you to go more than your limit. He saw that and brought forth water from a dry well, as a drop from heaven fell on my head and raised me from the dead. Do not let me die again Carrie, I am here to help you realize how special you are, and to anchor in new energies of love and balance.

I am thankful for all the little things in life, my kitten, a laugh from my wife, a smile. Though its hard, just to see her face makes things so much better. I am thankful she hasn't tossed my emotional heiney out and for putting up with me. I am thankful for my family's concerns for me, and for all their help and advice.

I don't know where I will be a year from now, but I am thankful I am still here.

Todd

Hellooo out there. Happy Thanksgiving.

I'm still alive. Pushing forward day by day the best I can. I'm home alone bored. Carrie is out a tavern alone tonite trying to set up a bartender with her girlfriend.

It's so cold out, so glad I did not have to go out in the cold. Feel so lonely lately, don't know what to do about it. Hope Carrie is having a nice evening. I do wish she felt comfortable going out with me, maybe someday she will.

I don't have any friends to hang out with really, she was my best friend so this makes it extra tough. I will hold on as long as I can.

Nothing good on TV. I've been meditating as much as I can lately, getting brief inspirations here and there, one or two visits from Carrie's mother, more from her today, but afraid to show Carrie, I just don't know if it will help or upset.

I am getting chest pain, palpatations, and have not had those in about 5 months. They went away completely when I fell in love again over the summer, and were gone for quite some time. I have to wonder if that higher self part of me has left, I'm worried it has or is in the process of going due to rejection. I don't want it to. This me is so lonely and boring. Yea lets go hang out with the quiet guy, maybe I can see now why Carrie don't want that tagging along.

Sorry.