Life stinks right now

Current mood: aggravated

I'm sitting up late again with trouble sleeping, and an upset stomach, probably stress. I'll be home all day tomorrow, missing out on a day of school because Carrie has a required important meeting, so I guess I'll take the kids somewhere for a little, and probably take them into school to check if I have any work to pick up.

I really shouldn't miss the gym that much, or at least try to compensate by walking, that really wiped me out today, but I wasn't in the best of moods when I went in.

I just found out the only good friend I had from high school just moved to CA without even letting me know when I was just about to go see him, heck I was even thinking about possibly going up this weekend, as I never got to see his baby or meet his wife. So much for getting back in touch with somebody.

So that leaves me with one good friend, my wife, who is one day happy and the next day totally different, constantly leaving me guessing what's coming next. She officially set up an appointment with the realator today to sell the home, so there's another one of our dreams down the toilet, yea I know it's stressful keeping the house, but everyone I know no matter how much money they have seem stressed lately, I don't think it ever completely goes away no matter how much you try to change your life.

I need some direction, some sign that spirit is still listening - I feel dazed and confused. Sometimes I just want to say screw it, do whatever you want - I'm just gonna go curl up somewhere.

Fell at the Fairy Festival

I took my kids to the Fairy Festival south of York today with my mom and grandma. I enjoyed myself for awhile, but my kids did all the fun stuff within the first 20 minutes of being there, and were left with not much left to entertain. While all the fairies and neat costumes were something to look at, eventually you just kept walking in a circle around nothing but people selling stuff, so I was disappointed that it seems to have turned into just a big commercial thing, instead of what I think it was intended for.

It was hot and my mom's boyfriend just kept staring at all the young girl's boobs, not that I didn't notice somethings myself, maybe that's why I fell down. Toward the end there I stepped on this old loose piece of cement, lost my footing and fell hard down on my ass in front of everyone, cutting my right leg up pretty good in the process, bleeding and stinging in the hot sun.

The kids got tired and cranky so I ended up carrying around my 4 year old on my back. I saw a few people I knew there from school but they were too busy massaging to notice me.

I liked the little dance with drums they had there, but nothing else impressed me except some of the costumes.

There were 2-3 Amish men outside protesting with picket signs with scripture verses saying all these people were evil and going to hell for believing in fairies. Sorry Amish people, last time I checked we are all already in hell, and these people aren't hurting anyone, just having fun in fact if anything they were teaching to love one another, respect each other and the earth, with no swaring, no nudity and no weapons, so why don't you just join in the fun or go back to your all deaf/mute/brain damaged kid community resulting from years of brainwashing and interbreeding among your own families, and while your at it clean up all that litter your horses leave all over the roads, at least those people were cleaning up after themselves.

I got home and Katie thought it was funny to keep kicking me in my wound. I told her to stop hurting my freshly open cuts. She's lucky I'm not a mean daddy or I would kick her butt.