The Inner Thoughts of Todd Jumper

My daily journal for my personal website. BLOG is short for "web log." Here I share my daily thoughts, interesting events, weird dreams, spiritual encounters, or just life's crap.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Help Me out For Christmas :) I’ll help you make money off Ebay.




Christmas is coming fast, and I find myself currently unemployed at the worst time of year. I am doing what I can to sell off E bay, things here and there.

I have currently lowered the price on the EBook I am selling that teaches you the methods to make a successful business selling off Ebay, if you want to make a few extra hundred dollars a month on Ebay or more depending on your resources.

I have lowered the price of the E-Book to $5.00, if you do not use E-Bay but have Paypal I can send you the book via email.

I need help saving up money for my kids Christmas this year, so far I have not been able to get much of anything for them. Going through a divorce and losing my job in October is taking its toll on me.

If you are willing to help a single father of three out. Check out the link below. I guarantee this guide /Ebook will help you make money on the internet.

My goal is to sell at least 25 copies before Christmas.

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=300155901102


Thanks for looking. Or if you do not want the book, I can donate a copy to someone.
If you would just like to donate use the paypal link above or below.
Thanks! Anything will be of help.

Todd




Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Future Telling - Weird Gift

I've been recently experiencing some psychic or mental ability that comes and goes which I am sure everyone at some point in time has had happened and just laughed it off.

For example, you said something, and within seconds it was repeated on TV or the radio, you shake it off as coincidence and laugh. It's usually just one or two words.

But lately this has been happening to me almost everyday, not just radio and TV, but road signs or even other people talking around me. It's more than one or two words, sometimes its an entire sentence.

Last week I was at someones house talking to them about my current situation, that something recent had upset me, and I layed awake in my bed the whole night crying.

Within 2 seconds, someone on the Maury Povich show on TV said "I layed awake in my bed the whole night crying."

We looked at the TV and both said what the hell?

Tonite I was sitting in the car with my brother and was thinking about a dream I had recently, where it seemed I had time traveled in the dream.

Just after I thought the words "Time Travel" my brother turned on a random song on the radio and the singer sang "Time Travel" real slowly. Never heard the song before in my life.

So how this works I am not sure. Is it coincidence, is it psychic. Do radio / TV signals pass through part of our brain faster than it gets to our ears?

Now if I could only see the freaking lottery numbers.

Somewhere In Time

... well I thought I was moving on but I must have had a mental relapse over the weekend.. but it seemed to be some type of spiritual emotional release.. Either that or I time traveled, lets just say it was a very vivid memory..

As my current situation goes, currently in middle of divorce. This experience I had during sleep, is similar to others I have had over the past year or so, but nothing this intense, every time I thought about it I started crying, in fact almost wrecked in the rain last night I was so overcome with so much grief.

10 years ago. I am pulling up outside her apartment. I just helped her move in a week or so before. I see her look out through the curtain, she is waiting anxiously for me. I have the letter she just wrote me sitting in my passenger seat. She signed it "Your eternal companion."

I walk to the door and she opens it up with the biggest smile on her face. I am saying to myself in my mind, "Turn back now, this isn't real."

But everything feels right, seems real. I think I am awake, but I also have a full knowledge of the present.

She seems so happy to see me, even put on makeup, light blue eye shadow, and she smells good as she pulls me close. We sit down on the couch and talk for the longest time. The kids are gone for the weekend and we have it all to ourselves.

She asks me whats wrong, why I don't seem as happy to see her. I tell her, I don't want to hurt you, I want this to last forever, but I know it doesn't. I've seen the future and you leave me in it.

She looks at me and says I could never leave you I love you too much, I've never loved anyone so much, how can you accuse me of doing this.

I drop the discussion and just enjoy the rest of my time with her, everything seemed real, its as if I was given one last opportunity to relive that day.

Later we are laying in bed together, and she is stroking my hair and singing to me, although she has changed the lyrics a bit. She tells me every time she hears the song she thinks of me, and that this song is for me.

"If you could only see the way he loves me
Then maybe you would understand
Why I feel this way about our love
And what I must do
If you could only see how blue his eyes can be when she says
When he says he loves me..."

I then start crying and say this hurts too much. I am sorry I hurt you. But you do leave me in the future and its more than I can bear.

She urges me not to leave, and says just hold onto my letter.

I am sucked back to reality 10 years later with my 5 year old waking me up to watch TV.

I go to the bathroom and break down. Later that day I returned the letter to her that sat on my empty passenger seat.

I feel like I am stuck in an alternate reality...